It is never easy.

It is never as simple as let’s ‘just go’.

I often envy the pictures I see of families having fun at a local festivals, especially in the Summer months.

I feel guilty too, that I just can’t ‘go’.

If we decide to make a trip, even to our local supermarket, it is planned, pre-planned with exit strategies all in place incase my son has a meltdown.

He cannot help these meltdowns.

He can become so overly excited or overstimulated that he has to let ‘it’ out, and letting ‘it’ out can come in bouts of laughter, screaming, violence, shouting curse words at onlookers …the list is honestly, endless.

I have two other sons, one who has ADHD and a toddler. Both are very aware of the attention their older brother can generate on a seemly average family outing.

My middle guy, finds it hard to concentrate on rules and guidelines when out and about,he finds his brothers actions embarrassing – something I can understand (and hope he will soon be less embarrassed about) this leads him to walk away and we end up looking for him in a state of panic sometimes.

My youngest, the toddler, is currently being potty trained and loves nothing more than running off while his eldest brother distracts mammy and daddy, he can be found peeing absolutely anywhere these days.

My point is; it is hard to go anywhere with my three sons and something I don’t do by myself ; ever.

The Summer months will be long, where I will have to come up with games and entertainment all from the safety of our home.

I will have to rely on the weather – if it’s dry there is a local green park I can walk to with all three boys, but we can’t stay long.The park is not suitable for my eldest son who has now become a wheelchair user; he loves the chair but also loves to run, despite being in pain for days after a walk around the park, he will insist on bolting and this obviously leaves him in more pain which leads to more behaviour issues.

More guilt for me as the other two boys are running wild and free and so is Ethan, but I must reign him in and remind the boys we must go home soon- Ethan does not understand why he is in pain and can not comprehend that less running and more wheelchair use would ease that pain– and I don’t want to force him to stop running either for I know one day he will not be able to run or even remember how to run and boy, does my Ethie love to run.

We don’t go to the funfairs.
We don’t go to circus.
We don’t go to beaches even though we live on the west coast of beautiful Ireland.
We don’t go to adventure parks.
We don’t go to friends houses for barbecues.

All that requires so much planning and replanning and being on edge the whole time that there is no point, we end up snapping at each other or worse, losing our patience  with our boys.

We do ‘our’ things and we do them at off peak and off season times because that is just a little easier for our family.

We just can’t simply ‘go’ and to those of you who can, enjoy it, relish it – it is a beautiful thing to be able to wake up and decide to go to the beach today just because it’s Summer …

This Summer we will go to the beach, we will take a walk through our city and we will go to the adventure parks…we will just do that when everyone else is seeing a dull day with the chance of rain, we will take that chance.

To the parents like me, hang in there, I know how hard it is to leave the safety of your home, even with all the planning in the world, our kids can throw a curveball in a second, I hope you guys get to the beach this Summer.

This was originally published on Firefly friends.com



    1. It sure can be Vickie ; it is a case of weighing it all up in the end. Thanks so much for reading and commenting X

  1. When my boys were little as the oldest one was diagnosed with ADHD and CAPD and the youngest with apraxia/hypotonia etc. I found it extremely difficult to take them anywhere too. We spent most of our free time at home or at a friend’s house. I just want you to know as they get older it does get easier, at least it did for me and hope it does for you too!!

    1. Thank you Lisa! My mother says the same thing – they won’t be little forever and I try to remember that too! Thanks so much for reading and taking the time to comment X

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